In the recent energy wave of Fear, sorrow, anger and rage, I was swept away in these collective energies, I felt them all ,I was all of these emotions, for two days as our world was turned upside down by one soul that lashed out at the world.Before I knew what had happened I woke up feeling all of these things ,I could not shake them .These collective energies brought about my own personal issues of needing life to be a certain way, trying to meet my dead lines on my remodel ,trying to keep up with clients and tiring to keep up the house and ,do yoga ,and go to work all came to be to much as the shift of the collective consciousness shifted on the tragic day when one man shifted the energy to anger ,rage,sorrow, and fear. I ,in these moments I was that mans emotional pain body vibrating out into the world .
We are all one ,we feel each other all the time, but we make it our own issues. We feel each other in good and bad ,happy and sad. The stronger energy will rule the environment, for a time, it is that energy that has the most reserves that gets center stage , so with all the devastation of natural disasters that we have been faced with lately ,and as we try and rally around each other , this one man with so much pain created a wave that touched all our pain bodies.
Last night it rained ,and it came down in sheets, mother earth clearing the air cleaning our pain body so we can rise once again and move forward to help each other. It was very clear to me that to see such hurt within one soul that he was so lost in his own pain body that he expelled it out into the world. He was in so much pain and so lost in the dark that he inflicted his hurt on to others. His poor inner child , I can only feel what it was like for a brief time of the torment that he inflicted on himself , feeling like he had no one to turn to so lost and alone . Now all I feel is compassion and unconditional love toward his lost inner child. His soul so desperate to escape the pain he also took his own life.
My heart has been opened because of him, to bring more love to the world in small and compassionate ways . Feeling today that I have something positive to share with my world with these words to help rebuild our collective energy in to a strong vibration of love .
Love is the only way ,with eyes wide open and compassion as our guide , I want to pass love on to all those that have been touched in any way by loss, and sadness.
At times I feel inspired to share some spot of wisdom that comes through ,or insight to some crappy feelings that I am struggling with. What I want you to know is this. I am a real person with real struggles ,I have ups and downs just like you . I love me but I have days I hate what I feel inside .The pain of PTSD is real and I have a lot of that, I also have a lot of tools to coop and manage my lows. I love having my connection to spirit which I talk to everyday . There is a lot of me that is imperfect ,but I love me anyway. I know all of this helps me ,help you. We walk this place called earth together ,and from what I can see the more we love ourselves and others ,the easier life can be. Sometimes I like to be public and other times I like to tuck myself away from the world . I don't put my self in a box much, I like to be free and easy .You see my life was very hard ,and at times I feel I am still in it so be kind . I have issues that I have learned to love and live with such as Dyslexia, and Lots OF PTSD ,I still find them rising up and had no idea that it still ruled me. Grammar ,not my thing ,so if you don't like the way I write please do not read :) or in the very least , Do not Correct me. I am not here to bring you a perfect image of a spiritual person, I am here to help those that seek me out. I have a lot of gifts and talents ,and I am good at what I do. I am not bragging here ,I just know that what I do and what I have done helps others,has made a difference. I help when called to help, animals ,people, and plants. I have been called here to share my gifts of healing with the earth, and I consider you a part of this earth. It all feels magical to me ,and I see magic in you .