I have been working with yoga on a daily basis for about a year now, I do miss a day here and there, but they are very far and few between. What I have experienced is something I never thought I would get from yoga, and it is so surreal still that I feel like I am dreaming. Yogi always talks about how you feel more at peace, and yes I felt that when I did yoga here and there, way back in the day when I would do little bits where and there along the way, but it never lasted, so I did not put much stock into. Now fast forward about 18 years and doing yoga daily has really changed me a lot.
I decided on hatha yoga, and quickly fell in love with kundilini yoga, so these are my two loves of yoga. What has happened in one year of daily yoga, turned the 25 plus years of healing work I had been immersed in and tossed it out the window, my progress in one year has been on the fast track, it has cleared so much trauma within me, I a clear connection to the great spirit, god, what ever you want to call it is now tangible for me, not in a thought, but a true feeling of being surrounded by its loving presence running through my whole body and mind. My thoughts are no longer about the future, and I have little remorse about my past. I strive to be in the present moment so I can feel the love of the great divine running through my blood and living with in me and around me. I would have to say when I decide to really work more with the kundilini yoga is when things got really good really fast. So now my practice is first and for most about 45 minutes kundilini yoga ,then about 45 minutes of hatha yoga.
I love me now, all of me, not just parts of me, when dark thoughts arise ,I run into that pain and pick it up as it where a small child and love on it till the pain fades into light. That is what a daily practice dose, you see the truth, you see it all, you see yourself whole. There is no unlovable part , and all parts deserve that love, it needs it to survive. With out love life is a struggle, we hide our pain from our self, and we try and hide it from others.
Yoga has been the most important tool of self healing in my life, it not only revels he mind maps that takes us down the dark allies of pain, it creates new better ones, all along the way, the more you do yoga the better the maps become, and thoughts turn from self loathing to self loving . I love yoga ,I love Creator, and I love me. The most beautiful thing about yoga is that it works from the very first practice, the only ask is that you do your best that day, and each day lightness comes in so many ways, love befriends you and encourages you the do your best, and always, always love your whole self right where you are. Yoga is a gift from the agent ones, giving us a map to love,peace and health.
Things will seem random and chaotic, but I love being me .The older I grow in age the better I feel .You might get words of wisdom here ,or just some rambling .I don't know for sure .